Apr 11 2008

How Do You Know If You Are an Adult Indigo?

One of the most frequent questions I hear from people is, “How do you know if you are an Adult Indigo?” Or “I thought this was only about the kids. How could an adult be one?” I hope this post answers your questions — and gives you some “food for thought.”

First of all, the question wouldn’t even come up unless someone has a deep identification with the traits and characteristics that distinguish Indigos. (Feel free to take the Indigo assessment here to find out where you fall within a range of common Indigo traits and characteristics.) So one would wonder, where is that identification coming from?

Secondly, I sometimes hear the statement from people in their 4th, 5th or 6th decades that “I’m too old to be Indigo.” Not so. Here’s why. The early Indigos (and I am one of them; maybe you are too!) were pretty much “in hiding” until the 1980′s when the next BIG wave of children began to arrive. Until then, it was dangerous in a million ways for us to reveal who we are and what our soul mission is here.

Why is that important to know? First of all, if someone is “in hiding” then they are not likely to reveal themselves to others, except perhaps for a very small circle of trusted friends or family members. How would the world know about us if we didn’t want to be discovered? (And trust me, we didn’t!)

Secondly, when the large wave of new Indigo children came in (and here I’m talking about millions of Indigo babies being born into families all around the world), the energy field upon which we adult Indigos have depended grew more stable. We did not need to rely solely on the intricate and thin web of Light that we had built with our own systems and knowledge. (And yes, there was such a web, before the large one we all created together later!) The new wave allowed us to relax, begin to reveal our Light, wisdom and stories — and be supported for it more than was ever possible before that time.

Thirdly, for many of us, our “real work” only began as soon as the big wave of Indigos came in during the 1980s. Many of us were just marking time, doing the best we could with our circumstances, often feeling adrift, until the ’80′s. when suddenly it might have felt that we were somehow called forward or awakened from a dormant state, our true mission “activated” at last. (Note: I don’t mean this to sound fatalistic, because it isn’t. We all had our assignments when we got here; it’s just that for many of us, the assignment didn’t start until we were several decades old — if that makes any sense. If you are one of the adult Indigos for whom this is true, you will immediately understand what I’m talking about here.)

Finally, we who came in first have been pathmakers. We prepared the energetic field for the others. We were truly like “linebackers” energetically — we cleared much energy, made many preparations, and “took the hits” that might have devastated the younger ones later on. We raised the collective vibration where possible, and engaged with our missions as best we were able. There were no guides. There were no signposts. Imagine what that must have been like, if you can: like being behind enemy lines in a hostile and dangerous territory. doing work upon which all life on this planet might one day require for its very existence. Los Ingognitos: that’s who we were. And we came in gladly, knowing that this is how it would be when we got here.

Were some of the hippies of the 1960′s early Indigos? By and large, no. They had a different role, mission and purpose. The Indigos who came in during this time recognized the hippie movement as a necessary energetic wave — and a few got caught in the drug scene and were lost during that time.

Of course one of the common arguments I hear is this: “But aren’t we all waking up now? Aren’t many people evolving into the traits that Indigos carry?” Ahh! Good question. And yes, there is an answer. Many humans are indeed waking up now. The ascension energies and process is like a tide that “lifts all boats.”

But here is the #1 criteria that I use (successfully, I believe) to help a person discern whether s/he is one of those evolving and waking up, or if s/he is Indigo. After you consider the traits and characteristics that many indigos share, ask yourself this one simple question: “Have you always been this way? Or have you changed as you have grown and developed yourself?”

If you have always been this way, you are most likely Indigo, regardless of how old you are now.

If you have evolved and developed these characteristics over time, then probably you are not.

The New Children disdain labels and don’t really like being set apart. Let us who are adults accept ourselves for who and what we are with the same grace.

If you recognize yourself now as an Adult Indigo, however, welcome to you! I am honored and happy to meet you. I hope you will contact me and introduce yourself; I’d love to hear from you.

We truly live in an amazing time. Whether you acknowledge yourself as Indigo or not, I appreciate your Light and thank you for adding your Love to a world that needs all of your special gifts.

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20 responses so far

20 Responses to “How Do You Know If You Are an Adult Indigo?”

  1. Dastiaon 18 May 2008 at 2:24 pm

    I am indigo and would like some words of inspiration from an indigo adult. You must have much to offer in that area.

  2. Nancyon 20 May 2008 at 4:49 pm

    Hi Dastia,

    Thanks for being here! Can you say something about what kind of inspiration you’re looking for? If I know more, I can write about it :-)

    I’ll be waiting to hear how I can help!

    Mostly just know that the world is ready for you now — even if it doesn’t always seem that way. YOU are the ones who will be inspiring, healing, and teaching others! Really!

    Also, no matter what happens, stay connected to Source. Be out in Nature as much as you can.

    Those two things alone will get you much comfort and solace if times feel hard.

    Much light and love,

    Nancy

  3. Julianon 09 Sep 2008 at 2:06 pm

    So I am Indigo. I want to say that I am glad to have read your article. I have always had some stuff going on with me. I am just now starting to figure out stuff I cant really put it into words how I “Really” feel. I mean I am a great writer as some have said but when it comes to expressing how I feel on paper its like there aren’t really words in the english vocab to really explain. There aren’t word strong enough. Do you know what I mean>?

    My thing is. I know what I am supposed to do but I am not sure how to do it. I recently became a camp counselor and worked with kids. I absolutly loved it. Im 23 years old and would really give myself away to the kds at times . It changed my life. I realized that the kids needed me or something. I loved them and they loved me. I dont know why but it feels right. I feel like I found my calling all though I have known it all along. I just feel like something has been awaken in my soul.

    I have to say though. I have psychic abilities or whatever you want to call them. I just dont know really how to use them. I have always remembered being dufferent as a child. My earliest memory is like at the ages of two or three. I have always felt more than anything. I can just feel everything. I can feel what a person is saying rather hear them sometimes.

    I know this all sounds retarded but I really couldnt explain it all yet too you. I just want to talk to someone who might no what I am going through. My heart weighs heavy and I want to do something about this drive in my soul. Please help or write back. juliandeesmith (at) yahoo (dot) com is my email

  4. Nancyon 09 Sep 2008 at 3:03 pm

    Hey Julian, you are so in the right place and right on time! I am so happy you found this web site, and hopefully know as a result that you are where you need to be.

    You really poured your heart out here, so please let me honor that by responding to what seems to be your most pressing questions. I hope they satisfy you :-)

    It is truly a challenge to try to express what we Indigos KNOW inside — because there really is not yet appropriate language for it. I think that may be one reason why we’re seeing so many young autistic kids; they don’t have language for what they know, sense, and experience. So yes, let me validate that for you! You’re not crazy. That’s very real — and it’s tough! (But don’t stop trying, OK??)

    About knowing what you want to do, but not knowing how to go about it? Many people (not just Indigos) face this dilemma all the time! The good news is that there are many, many pathways to find and co-create what you want. (That’s one place I can help, if you like.) But you can find your own way, too! You don’t need to wait for someone else to show you.

    Here’s what I suggest about that. Formulate a question, that most clearly describes what you want to learn or know, and begin it with the word “What.” For some reason, that word seems to unlock a greater intuitive field, where we can access the Universal Mind most directly. Then listen in silence for an answer. which can come from anywhere, any time — and be alert, because it may not “look” like what you expect! But it will come.

    What you are describing about your psychic abilities is called Clairsentience. It’s probably the most common psi talent, and everyone has it to one degree or another — it’s just that Indigos are very strong in this, moreso probably than others. So. . . trust it! That inner knowing is valuable for everything in your life. And it always will be.

    Finally, could you possible relax into a deeper knowing place, where you understand that all is well with you — and with the greater world — because of your connections with Source? If you can — if you will — you will be able to release your frustrations, and find your path, and walk it joyfully.

    I hope this helps.

    Peace and love to you, Julian — and many blessings for your journey!

  5. Marcoon 29 Sep 2008 at 4:49 am

    Hey, well I’m still doubting if I’m an Indigo or not… I know this sounds kinda absurd because the post was supposed to clear that doubt. I’ve heard about Indigo and Crystal children but I never took the time to look for information, I’ve always felt like very spiritual but at the same time I’m kind of a fan of hard science, that’s why I never looked for explanations. Anyway, I was born in 1981 and my IQ exceeds 140, I feel identified with many things you describe here (I’ve always felt instantly when someone is lying; lies and injustice can lead me to real fury, for example) but I don’t know if that’s considered “different” or a psychic ability, I certainly don’t have premonitory dreams or that kind of things but there has always been a strange connection between my life and my dreams, it’s very hard to explain… although I don’t know exactly what does being an Indigo means, for what I’ve read here, it sounds like I should be aware of many other things besides what I’ve done so far with my life…

    I’m in the middle of my second college degree and working on digital illustration and photography, I know where I want to get with all this, I know from long time ago I want to make a difference in society, help other people by teaching, guiding or inspiring… is just that… as you say somewhere here, the amount of “to do”s is overwhelming and sometimes I feel really frustrated about it… is it normal? I mean… I guess it’s normal for all kind of people, but is it normal even if I’m an Indigo?

    I would really appreciate if you contact me for some explanation or tell me who can I talk to..? maybe looking for some aura reader to “confirm” the fact? I don’t know… all this is very new to me and I hope to be coherent, I love to write even when sometimes the result is a non linear chain of thoughts.

    Regards
    Marco

  6. Nancyon 29 Sep 2008 at 10:55 am

    Hi Marco,

    You sound quite typical to ME, Marco! One thing that distinguishes Indigos from other folks is our clarity about our life mission; there is usually at least one thing we KNOW we are meant to do here, whether we are doing it all the time (or at all/yet.) The thing is, we KNOW!

    And it’s that knowing, that deep unshakable sense, that is the mark of an Indigo.

    Don’t pay much attention to the aura bit; everyone’s aura changes a lot depending on your thoughts and emotions, where your attention is focused, and many other things. You don’t need anyone else to tell you what you already know about YOU!

    There are many forms of psi talent; clairsentience is probably the most common, and that’s what you seem to have most prominently. The best way to describe it is just as you have; “just KNOWING.” That’s great! (And yes, everyone has some degree of psi talent, but Indigos have more of it — and it comes more easily — than with other people.)

    The other “big deal” is the statement you made about “I’ve always felt very spiritual.” That’s the other big difference between Indigos and other people; yes probably everyone has a curiosity about who we are and why we’re here; but the thing is, Indigos just seem to understand that we are connected with Source (regardless of how you define that.) It’s a given, the way gravity is on Planet Earth. Not everyone has that (at least not to the degree Indigos do.)

    Marco, I hope this helps, and if you’d like to discuss this in more depth, please call me and let me know what time zone you’re in. I’ll arrange to speak with you personally about it.

    Glad you’re here! I’m happy to meet you, and I send you many blessings of love and light :-)

    Nancy

  7. Angieon 29 Sep 2008 at 3:17 pm

    Hello Nancy,

    I think I might be (an) Indigo. I’m a thirty year old who went to
    see the movie “The Indigo Revolution” for the sake of my daughter.
    But during the discussion after the movie I started to really identify
    with the speakers, who were both Indigos.

    I soon realized that all my life I have been fighting something.
    My sister and I both went through grueling childhoods together.
    And through it all she has called me a Fighter, so have my parents.
    Looking back, all my life I’ve been battling issues in society,
    within humanity. And finally when my husband and I had a child,
    things just exploded! Since then, I have been faced with many issues that
    have seemed like they picked me to be their spokesperson. Like a
    school-girl getting assignment after assignment, I began having
    book after book stacked in my ‘backpack’, for ME to . . . essentially
    show the world. Everything from childbirth, to parenting, to nutrition,
    to healing cancer, to dental health, to the truth of humanity being a
    part of the Unity, and ‘Angels’. And these truths that are being
    revealed to me are incredible. Profound.

    Also in regards to all of these issues, I have people coming to me
    begging for this information… Even people who used to dislike me!
    But I also have situations arise where this information is begging
    to come forth, but I know the people and the situation are wrong,
    or wouldn’t be accepted. This is when my soul feels like it’s being
    tortured.

    My husband has always supported every new avenue I am driven
    to explore, but he sometimes gets frustrated with how there are
    so many things that affect me or need my attention.

    And when I talk about these things my whole being vibrates, so
    high that I get the cold sweats (like right now).

    Now, with the idea that I might be Indigo, I feel … interesting.
    I feel very calmed. I feel serene. I don’t feel like I’m on an ego
    trip, like I was worried other Indigos might be on (I don’t feel
    that now). I feel like I’ve been chosen, and now understand
    WHY all of these events have been happening to not my girlfriends,
    but ME. I feel that with the ‘title’ (chills of uneasiness) Indiglo,
    I have accepted my mission, instead of wondering why I, personally,
    felt a mission sense, but was not entitled to it, so I just tried to
    live my life without trampling on anyone. Yes, run on sentence, but
    there is just no way to describe it.

    Please send me your thoughts. I feel very desperate to know them.

    Warmest Regards,
    Angie

  8. Nancyon 30 Sep 2008 at 12:40 pm

    First of all, WELCOME!! You are home and safe here :-)

    (Actually, you are safe anywhere so long as you stay connected to Source. And most Indigos are hard-wired to do that naturally.)

    What you are describing is perfect. Yes, that’s how we feel. And that knowing about when and how to share things? That’s what the struggles are about, most of the time. We know what we know ~ but what to DO with it???.

    Sometimes it seems like it’s so much more important for the world to hear the truth than it is to care about whether or not anyone else will like it. I imagine that’s what some of the leaders are going through right now, with the monetary situation in the USA and globally. Even if they are not Indigo (and I doubt that they are) we can surely empathize with the situation.

    It’s not easy! But is IS important that others hear our perspective. Sometimes urgently so.

    And that’s a job we Indigos came here to do. We expected to encounter turbulence. In general, we know how to handle it. And it isn’t going to stop us.

    Your Light is warm and positive. Your motives are great — you are not trying to force anyone to change (while maybe wishing they would!!). You just want others to see what we can see, know what we can know, from as close to Truth as you can get.

    Don’t know whether that helps or not, but yes, I can surely validate what you’re saying! I relate to it completely.

    As the younger kids say, “Been there, done that, bought the T-shirt, book and video too.” Except a few of us wrote the books, made the T-shirts, and filmed the videos. . . yeah, that too.

    Much light and love to you!

  9. Krystalon 02 Nov 2008 at 3:58 pm

    Hello Nancy, Hello everybody!
    I feel very happy to find a home after ‘wondering’ and hiding for so long.
    I was born and grown up in the Mediterranean region. I am 45 years old and I beleive that I am definitely an Indigo. Most of the experiences you share above are mine too.
    I have always felt being different from the others eversince I was a child. Different of my sisters, my schoolmates, my friends, my colleagues etc…Many times I got the feeling I did not belong to this world. I had a very strong intuition since I was a child. My psychic messages, which started at very early age, are mostly revealed through my dreams.
    I have always felt protected from above. Before, I could not explain this phenomenon, but now I can understand and feel deeply grateful. Many of these manifestations of protection or assistance seemed like miracles and to my eyes they looked normal and somehow expected.

    However, like many of you, although I know that I am on a mission it is hard to keep in the right path because there are many obstacles coming up. No matter how strong and determined we are, it is too difficult to fulfill this mission. Why God, the Universe or whatever you might call it, leaves these obstacles come up? Many times I get the impression of being tested. Is it really necessary? Since we have been chosen to facilitate things for newcomers why should we be challenged and tested? This is a question that bothers me at a moment when I am still trying to find my highest ‘mission’.

    Nevertheless, I shall continue my efforts with much hope and faith since deeply in my heart I know I shall find it.
    Glad to meet you all. Sincere wishes and bestregards.
    Krystal

  10. Nancyon 02 Nov 2008 at 4:13 pm

    Hi Krystal,

    Welcome home! I am so happy to meet you, and to know that you are here on the planet at this time.

    Ahh, the issue of “being tested”!

    And “why”?

    Before I respond, I’d like to hear what you think about it first. What do you think is going on with that? All are welcome to contribute your ideas here.

    Nancy

  11. Krystalon 02 Nov 2008 at 5:07 pm

    Hi Nancy! If I only knew the answer to that…….

    But don’t you agree that it is a paradox to feel so much loved and favoured from the Creator but on the other side to be tested?

    I understand that there is always margin of self-development and spiritual growth in this new life and I accept any type of challenges in that sense. I know it’s hard and painful in most of the times but empirical evidence shows that we always come out stronger and ‘richer’ from such testing.

    The sort of obstacles and difficulties that I cannot understand are those refering to the mission and the purpose of our presence here. Whether we cannot define it early and in good timeon our way or we meet such difficulties and people that discourage us or force us to abandon our efforts. We might not quit but, this delays the overall work and we get confused and tired.

    Therefore, if Indigos who came 30=40 years ago were meant to act in a very strange environment for them and under difficult circumstances why should they also be tested in their mission?? Why not create more favourable conditions?

    The only answer I can give is that Indigos are just spiritually more developed entities that are trying, like all others, to get better and touch another dimension. If they had come on a special mission, why then get so confused and feeling tested at every moment? It’s hard to frame my question and put my feelings in words but, I know that you all understand what I mean.
    Still, I feel so loved and grateful for being here at this time!

  12. Nancyon 04 Nov 2008 at 1:32 pm

    Hi Krystal,

    Your question really echoes a lot for those of us older Indigos who have asked the question many times about “Why did it have to be so hard?”

    Obviously one reason is that someone had to “cut a track”. And that was one purpose and mission.

    Another reason is that, before we came in, we knew there would be resistance. But once we are in 3D form, we also experience less access to everything we knew before we came in ~ sort of an amnesia, if you will, that doesn’t show the full picture. We may have forgotten what we agreed to do here, or the conditions under which we would be operating.

    In my case, for instance, I can clearly recall many times when I remembered how easy it is to operate without third dimensional limitations ~ and how restrictive it feels to have this physical body, while maintaining the additional dimensions and connections elsewhere.

    THAT is where I have had the most personal struggle and frustrations — until I remembered that I can choose my attitudes, too. It is in knowing that we have the power of choice, that we can shift in major ways. And I use this tool as often as I can!

    The other aspect of this question is personal karma and aptitudes. What is burdensome for one person would not be an issue at all for another. And that is a very individual thing.

    One other important thing to consider is that we humans are all learning some new skills, about how to be powerful co-creators with Source. We all have the capacity, but because of our environments and personal inclinations, we may not choose to exercise that capacity until a time when it feels important for us to do.

    I’m not sure this is making much sense right now, but intuitively I know it’s right. In other words, one answer to “why is it so hard and confusing” is that having to discover the curriculum has (until very recently) been a personal choice; now I feel it is a mandate ~ and something to which all humans are being called.

    Earlier Indigos set the stage. in a way; we prepared the dance ground to make it safe for others to come and play. I think we did a pretty good job, considering how many are here now, wouldn’t you say???

    Did this clarify anything, or does it raise even more questions?

    Many blessings,

    Nancy

  13. Krystalon 05 Nov 2008 at 4:09 am

    Much clearer Nancy! Thanks! If not anything else, I know at least that I am not alone in raising such questions and facing similar situations.

    It’s true that adult indigos have done a pretty good job and I get the feeling that their best achievents are still expected. Now that they are conscious of their power and supported in their efforts, they can really thrive!!!

    With love!
    Krystal

  14. anikoon 04 May 2009 at 11:13 am

    I am an Indigo without a doubt, but only recently have become knowledgeable of this label/category of person.

    I am chronically bored with life in general. I have a hard time staying at a job more than 6 mos – 1 year tops before feeling there is something more out there that I can better spend my time on regardless how much I am making.

    I generally stand out in a group unententionally, I usually become the brunt/target of jokes, mean comments etc. Not because I am a bad person, but some people, rather most people with exception of a few can’t handle my energies. On a good day when I am high vibing people look at me like I am running around with a clown wig or something. They can’t embrace/relate to my spirit. I look younger than my age and a lot of people are taken aback when they find out how old I am. Almost in a resentful sort of way. How can I look youthful and have such a lighthearted spirit at my middle age when they can’t. I have been called a Polyannia (sp?) often. This hurts me. Sometimes I can get people wrapped up in my hype, but other times more often than not especially now that I am oder I get burned at the stake. When I was younger I accomplished and got away with a lot more then now at middle age. I don’t like being made fun of or the looks of amazement like I am on crack or something just because I am happy. I hate the slights, personal attacks, and being thrown under the bus as a way to level the playing field. I am just me!

  15. Nancyon 06 May 2009 at 4:43 pm

    Hi Aniko,

    Thank you for your comments! It certainly sounds like you are doing your part to raise the vibration of the world wherever you are ~ and that’s wonderful. What’s not so wonderful is how challenging it all feels to you. Please know that there are many others here who share your experiences, and together we support one another with love and great light and peace. Also please know that those who do not yet understand are acting from a place of either ignorance or fear; we might feel compassion for them, when we;’re in a good place ourselves, because they are not in the presence of Source and love, and therefore they are still suffering.

    Although it may not seem like it at times, you CAN choose to shift your energy fields and refocus on Source/Love. This is the only thing that’s real. it is what endures.

    Go back to the I AM inside. Your connection with Source will sustain you through all manner of events.

    Hope this helps? Let me know.

    Warm hugs!

  16. Andréon 03 Jul 2009 at 5:41 am

    Hi everyone!
    I heard about Indigo and Crystal children, but never cared about it, I thought that was just another New Age craze without real meaning.
    Yesterday in the evening I was sitting at my desk reading my emails when I opened Google and typed “How to know an Indigo Child”, I have no children and don’t work with them so I had no real interest in the subject, it was just a click inside my head. I found some pages with the traits of Indigo Adults and almost all of them looked like they were talking about me. I was shocked and at the same time a lot of things made sense.
    Now I don’t know if I’m really an Indigo or not but I’ll tell you about me:
    I’m 27 and I have a tendency for spiritual things and religions since I was 8 (thank the gods, my parents were into spiritual religions too, so that was not an issue). I could see things when I was younger and now, although I lost that ability (at least most of the times) I still have some anxiety and the feeling I’m always being watched (I’m thinking of asking a friend who is psychotherapist if this can be paranoia).
    When I was at school, I loved going there to learn, but as soon as the classes started for the day I would lose interest because I already learned that the day before or because I found no utility on the subjects, so my grades were average when all the teachers said I could be the best if I wanted to. I never had a lot of friends, everyone knew me, but I was the one who never get invited to parties or I was just the punching bag. I didn’t like normal activities like playing football with the guys and such (I’m not very good at physical sports, so I didn’t really care). I was never successful with girls (I’m married and happy now, so I guess that is history) because I’m more the anti-social type. I’m a musician (by hobby) for 13 years but I never went too far, I can learn the skills easily, but don’t have patience to practice. My stuff is an absolut caos, everything is just thrown around, but I like to have my computer files well organized.
    At work I’m a mess I don’t like to follow orders, but If I’m my own boss I only like the job while it is a challenge, when it comes to routine i hate it.
    I still don’t know “what I want to be when I grow up” and that is turning into a big problem about my life (Specially with family, I’m unenmployed and my wife too, so my parents are paying the loan so I don’t lose my house, but they are getting tired as they say I don’t want to work).
    While I was reading this article I remembered that when I was about 4 years old I used to tell stories about “when I lived in another planet”.
    I’m not really sure if I’m an Indigo (it’s a new concept for me) or if I’m just plain weird, but if I’m an Indigo, what do I do now? What am I waiting for?

  17. Nancyon 08 Jul 2009 at 2:31 pm

    hi Andre,

    Happy to meet you! And I’m glad you found this site and can get adjusted to your new realization. Sounds like you have some entrepreneurial possibilities. If you’d like to write to me privately please do so. I have some things I’d love to share with you.

    Meanwhile, may you find peace in your heart and a song in your soul.

  18. Kellyon 28 Sep 2009 at 3:11 pm

    Um, hi.
    I am currently in a major state of confusion. Up until about a week or so ago, I’d never heard of anyone being an indigo. The whole concept is completely new to me. However, I’ve found myself completely obsessing over this. I am internally driven to learn more. I’ve read through several lists of characteristics of an indigo and most of it certainly sounds like me and things I’ve experienced. At about 4yrs old I told my mom that I wasn’t me (as in my body) but that I was the voice I heard inside my head. I also would carry out tasks/playing while asleep. Needless to say, my mom was completely freaked and it’s my first memory of feeling like I don’t belong. There are no pictures of me as a child where I look happy. I never really had many friends. Everyone either hates me for who knows why or is inexplicably drawn to me to the point it’s overwhelming and I push them away anyway. I really only get along with very small children or animals. I don’t know what my IQ is, but I got decent grades. Never studied or did homework. I got kicked out of school 6weeks before graduation. I stopped going to class and spent my days hanging out at the local fish and wildlife preserve. They told me not to come back but my transcript says “withdrew, lack of interest”. I then spent several years (age 18-25) in deep depression with suicidal tendancies. I finally almost succeeded and it was like a jolt. There must be something I’m meant to do. I still feel “unworthy” and alone. I have issues with rage. I am rarely emotional with/for my family yet I can’t watch tv (csi) and onstar commercials make me burst into tears. I think I’m an insane freak. A lady told me yesturday that I’m as indigo as the deep blue sea. Am I? How do I know? Why don’t I understand what my “job” is? Oh, and I’m 30 now. There is more to this rambling and several things that have happend lately, but I think I’ve spilled enough for now. Strangely, I feel alittle relief from typing this.

  19. Nancyon 29 Sep 2009 at 12:31 pm

    Hi Kelly,

    Hey I’m so glad you found us at last! Welcome home :-) You are definitely among friends and kindred souls here!

    Your story sounds very familiar; many other Indigos would definitely identify with you. And yes, we are all here for a mission: to make this world a better place. What each one’s purpose might be can change from time to time, so rather than being concerned because it isn’t clear yet, keep asking — and finding things to do to make it better where you are. Turn from what is not loving, help those who reach out (where and if you can), and just beam your inner Light on everyone.

    Yes it can feel like Earth isn’t the right place to be, because there are so many problems here — and so many people who don’t vibrate to the same resonant field as Indigos. But we’re tough people and we can take it! In fact, just by being here we ARE changing things. Fast. Look around you and stop listening to the TV or the news — that’s not where you’ll find the miracles. They are all around you when you look, though. . .

    Make sure to spend as much time as possible out in nature. That is where you will find sustenance for you soul, encouragement, and uplifting energy.

    If you’d like someone to talk to, contact me. I’m a great listener :-)

    Until we meet again, I send you hugs and much joy and peace.

    Nancy

  20. Dianneon 18 Mar 2010 at 7:36 pm

    I heard about Indigo people yesterday, and I have been searching online all day, and I came upon this website page, and I just had to leave a comment! Thank You All, for being true to your spirit :D You’ve given me such comfort to know that you are here to help us in these troubling times. I feel assured to know that even with all these upheavals and chaotic states of affairs in the world, there are especially powerful people in the world who love to create peace and harmony for all humanity. I will continue to do my best to serve the collective efforts of enhancing the energy field of love and hope to all people :) Thank You again and much love and peace to you for all that you’ve had to endure and tolerate just to be here now.

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